As of midnight last night I have completed 100 days of abstinence. No flour, no sugar, no alcohol, no compulsive eating and no binge foods. As of August 1st I have lost 36 lbs.
I can now wear clothes that haven't fit me in two years, maybe more. I can now grocery shop without anxiety.
I still have trouble making meals for my family that I can not eat. The Engineer is working hard at being patient.
I still go to at least three meetings a week. I talk to my sponsor almost every day. I diligently work the steps.
The first thirty days were hard. The next sixty flew by. The last ten have been difficult.
For every door I slam close on my disease it works diligently to find another way in. It is relentless. It looks for any opportunity to trip me up.
I pray daily for the serenity to accept the things I can not change, courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference. Before program these words meant nothing to me. Now they mean everything.
My Higher Power is my only defense. Self-will avails me nothing.
One day at a time.
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100 days already? What you're doing is very difficult, and I'm proud of and happy for you.
ReplyDeleteKeep moving forward one day at a time. If you ever get discouraged, I'm always here for you.
yay mommy!
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